I am always right.

Just goes to show you that I am always right. ALWAYS. Remember when I blogged this "Please don't break my heart; I might crash and burn" a few days ago, yeah. I was right. Even when I don't want to believe it, I am always right. My instincts never fail me, my refusal to believe in my instincts fail me. Why? Because when my instincts suggest that someone is a fuckface, I am a fool enough to believe in giving them the benefit of the doubt. Because I am just like that, I like to believe in the best of people. you'd think after all I've been through, that I'd be more hard-hearted than that and that I'd learn not to trust anyone. But no. I can't bring myself to.

But you know what, all of this just proves that I am a better person than you. Because I really did give with all my heart, and you didn't give a fuck. You only pretended you did to give me the illusion that you cared because we both know what you really wanted. And it wasn't me. You know what upsets me the most and what reduces me to tears? the fact that I almost let myself fall for you. The fact that I almost, ALMOST, was willing to give you so much of myself. I gave you more than I gave most guys.

And you know what I feel now? I feel like a fool. I feel like I've been played, again. And you can't even apologise for it. You don't even try to explain to me. Step up and take responsibility.