Our Top 5

There are so many songs we've decided are songs for us and for how we feel about each other. So we've narrowed it down to five. It wasn't easy okay. :)

1. All Night Long - Gabriel Antonio
2. Knock You Down - Keri Hilson
3. Fall in Love - D'Banj
4. She Flys Me Away - Jason Derulo
5. Rock - Beyonce

Bonus (Lol) track : Superhuman - Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

They're all my favourites really, they're all songs that remind us of each other and how we feel for each other. :) I love this funny boy.


Note; Baby rock with me :)

Just A Dream

The saddest song I've heard in such a long time. It made me cry the first time I heard it. 

It reminds me to be grateful about who I have in my life today, because tomorrow, they just might be gone; tomorrow, that one person I want to spend my life with, might just be gone. It's highly depressing, but it's a really good song. 

It made me realise that much. 

♥

Just a Dream. 

And when the church doors opened up wide

She put her veil down, tryin? to hide the tears

Oh, she just couldn?t believe it

She heard the trumpets from the military band

And the flowers fell out of her hands

Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?

I was countin? on forever, now I'll never know

I can't even breathe

It's like I'm lookin? from a distance, standin? in the background

Everybody's sayin?, he's not comin? home now

This can't be happenin? to me, this is just a dream

The preacher man said, ?Let's bow our heads and pray

Lord, please lift his soul and heal this hurt"

Then the congregation all stood up and sang

The saddest song that she ever heard

Live like we're dying

Yeah, gotta start

Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here

This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it

Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'

Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day

To turn it all around or throw it all away

We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say, 

Gotta live like we're dying

- Kris Allen - 

Bittersweet Symphony

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life

Trying to make ends meet, trying to find some money then you die

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down

You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah

You know I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,

but I'm here in my mold, I am here in my mold

And I'm a million different people from one day to the next

I can't change my mold, no,no,no,no,no

Why do I sometimes feel like my life has been one huge mistake?

Adam

Adam Lambert isnt so bad. =] Just heard his album. It's nothing that could catch my heart and make me want to listen to it nonstop like forever. But it's not as bad as i thought.

Because you loved me; One of the greatest songs all time.

You were my strength when I was weak, You were my voice when I couldnt speak, You were my eyes when I couldnt see, You saw the best there was in me, Lifted me up when i couldnt reach, You gave me faith cos you believed, I am everything I am; because you loved me. 

-Celine Dion-

Fifteen

Cos when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you,
You're gonna believe them.

- Taylor Swift-

Whatever you do, don't give up.

I feel like he might have written and sang this song for me ); This song made me cry earlier.
Sometimes, I feel like the people who sing songs like this know me better than my own friends.

Don't Let Up - Akon


(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Girl I Know you're fed up but things gonna get a lot better
(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do, don't let up

Girl i Know that things are hard now
And you're feeling that you're all alone
Mom & dad's no long 'round now
'Cause now you're grown with kids of your own
Baby dad is nowhere to be found
While you play the role of mom & papi
(Raising them all by yourself)
Always home and can't go out now
Can't remember the last time that you were happy
Whatever you do...

(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Girl I Know you're fed up but things gonna get a lot better
(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do, don't let up

Every man that you meet on the streets
You're looking at him like he's an enemy
(Just give us one more chance)
Girl I know that you can't hurt no more
You've been damaged, can't trust nobody
And I know that you can just move on
If you let your past go with the wind
(And smile more often)
Then you will find that guy that you always wanted
From friend to husband
So girl just know that...

(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Girl I Know you're fed up but things gonna get a lot better
(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do, don't let up

No matter how bad things get
Girl don't let it get to you
I know you're trying to make ends meet
So girl don't let it get to you
You only got one life to live
So don't let it get to you
So go on and make the best of it
Just don't let it get to you

(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Girl I Know you're fed up but things gonna get a lot better
(Dont Let it Get To You, No Baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do, don't let up

Be jealous (;

So, guess who's in a happy mood today (:
And guess why ;)
I'll show you why (:

Yes, please, if you're not going for akon, but you really really really want to, please feel free to envy me
That rhymed (:
I am happy.
This will be my second time watching him perform live
I ♥ Akon.

Be jealous. Be very very jealous (:
and  PS if you've got better tickets, or you've got passes to whatevershitnonsense (*yes i mean YOU Manda and Davi ;] ) then just shuddup please (:
Dont burst my bubble because I'm happy I'm going (: and with someone awesome too. ♥


Tuned in to :  AKON ♥ Troublemaker
Note; Baby I'm a troublemaker, I heard that you're a heartbreaker

Even if the sky is falling down

Song of the moment : Down - Jay Sean

So baby don't worry, you are my only, 
You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down, 
You'll be my only, no need to worry, 
Baby are you down down down down down, 
Down, Down, 
Baby are you down down down down down, 
Down, Down, 
Even if the sky is falling down.

Despite how totally awesome this song is, and despite how much i love it 

and how cute i think jay sean is, i swear i think he is just the most boring 

thing invented since potatoes. 

His videos are always the same old same old stuff. 

It's always about him and how hot he thinks he is 

and how every other girl around him is so hot for him. 

and yet, he only apparently has eyes for one. 

This video is just so *yawn worthy. 

The beginning was just so cheesy. 

I mean, helo, showing off his body 

(don't get me wrong i think his body is just bloody sexy ;)) 

but really. 

And then the girl standing by the window and him coming up behind her, 

it's just so hindi movie drama :-/

And as usual the video is full of girls girls girl just attending to his needs and 

twirling around him to get his attention just to say 'hey'? 

I like the part where he and a whole bunch of guys were dancing - lol, 

only cos it added to the "so-hindi-movie" part. 

A part of me though, still just believes that he so can NOT dance. :P

And he always has this look on his face like 

"i-know-im-so-freaking-hot-and-all-the-girls-want-to-jump-me-and-this-is

-further-proven-by-all-the-hot-girls-in-my-video-that-are-all-over-me"

I don't hate Jay Sean. I just think he's SO perasan! 

Bluek. 

But yeah, i like the song. 

Hate the video, and somewhat hate the singer. 

but LOVE the song. 

Good Girls Go Bad ;))

RandomMusicShuffleSurvey :)

1. How are you feeling today ?

Song : What's Going On? - 4 Non Blondes

Me : What's going on? I know. But I don't know. Cos I don't care.

2. Will you get far in life ?
Song : Izinku Pergi - Kaer

Me : I suppose I'll be leaving?

3. How do your friends see you ?
Song : Killa - Cherish ft Young Joc

Me : Shawty is a Killa! ;)

4. Will you get married ?
Song : All by myself - Leona Lewis

Me : Apparently not? Thank Moses. :)

5. What is your best friend’s theme song ?
Song : Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Me : I think it suits Anney ; somewhat. Ily Ann.

6. What is the story of your life ?
Song : Whatever Happens - Nicole Scherzinger

Me : Whatever happens, when the world is closing in. Whatever happens yo :)

7.What was high school like ?
Song : Emotions - Destiny's Child

Me : It's over and done..

8. How can you get ahead in life ?

Song : Sabotage - Kristinia DeBarge

Me : Awesome. let's sabotage them selfish bitches and get money$$$! ;)

9. What is the best thing about your friends ?
Song : Something Stupid - Nicole Kidman and Robbie Williams

Me : Cos we always get up to something stupid when we're together :) Ilygirlsss.

10. What is in store for this weekend ?
Song : Future Love - Kristinia DeBarge
Me : Lol. Nothankyou? Unless it's a certain someone i want ;)

11. To describe your grandparents ?

Song : Bills, Bills, Bills - Destiny's Child

Me : Hahahaha! :D

12. How is your life going ?

Song : Sweet Dreams - Beyonce

Me : It can be a sweet dream, or a beautiful nightmare.

13. What song will they play at your funeral ?
Song : Girls Just Wanna Have Fun - Cindi Lauper
Me: Cos I'mma have fun partying with Jesus :)

14. How does the world see you ?

Song : I wanna be like you - Jonas Brothers

Me : Wo0o0ow. Haha. :D Try la, try >p

15. Will you have a happy life ?

Song: Somebody - Kristinia DeBarge

Me: I suppose so :) To be loved by somebody.

16. What do your friends really think of you ?

Song : Crazy Kinda Crush on You - Jonas Brothers

Me :Haha. Seriously? Awesome :)

17. Do people secretly lust after you ?

Song : Good Girls Go Bad - Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meister

Me : >D hehehe. Cos they like them good girls that go bad eh ;)) BTW this is like my new theme song cos its BLOODY AWESOME.

18. How can I make myself happy ?

Song : Say My Name - Destiny's Child

Me : Can i get anymore self-absorbed? haha. Say my name baby, say it ;)

19. What should you do with your life ?

Song : Jumpin' Jumpin - Destiny's Child

Me :Party up yo! ;)))

20. Will you ever have children?
Song: Down - JaySean ft Lil Wayne
Me : I suppose so? :)

Rexona K-Queen

I dnt know if you remember :) I joined some random Rexona Karaoke thing cos elo and zac made me. so please please go vote for me :D i want to win x)

here's the link :

http://rexona.com.my/gallery.htm?search_txt=joanna&sortby=dcreated



search for Joanna Ambrose and PLEASE vote! :D

i love you forever and ever :)

♥Joanna

It aint easy, Being cheesy

Two things.

1. Roshaan and his randomness :)

We were talking about a friend of ours and what she's thinking of doing for her boyfriend on his birthday and then another friend suggested doing something which i suppose COULD seem really sweet but i just thinks its cheesy :P but cute in a cheesy way. hahaha. and then my friend was like "dowan laa.. damn shy laa".. and Roshaan goes

"Don'tshyawayfromloveManda"

THEN...

Roshaan : It ain't easy.. being cheesy!
*Jo bursts our laughing! :D*
Davinia : Roshaan took a rhyming potion
*Jo - looks blankly THEN bursts out laughing!*

hahha :D when did roshaan get all funny? hahaha :D

Anyways..
Item 2) to be discussed. That ex boyfriend that wants me back.

I decided, after everything thats happened with him, all the pain and sadness he's made me feel, he's not worth me and everything i have to give.
I have a hell of a lot to offer:
I am a sweet person.
i'm funny.
i'm really caring and nice.
i'm always there when you need me.
i am genuine.
i am patient.
i put up with a hellofalot AND i'm not a controlling girlfriend (Josh and Roy are testimonies to that).
i dont expect much, though i have my standards
i'm not materialistic - i dont expect gifts and whatevershit.
i may not be pretty or beautiful, or hot or sexy or whatever shit, but i am one hellofa cute girl and i am REAL. - [call me perasan or whatevershit, but that's jut the way it is. its true.]

And he can't even give me back HALF of what i have to offer. I deserve so much more than that. So I decided, i'm over it. It took me awhile to realise it, but eventually, thanks to my friends who care about me enough to yell and scream at me for even considering him again, I dont even want to bother thinking about him.
Cos well.. I'm worth so much more.

Also.
Another song i'm in love with. Another one that reminds me of me.
*sigh
I love how there are always songs of the moment that are like so.. storyofmylife!
This time, its a pretty unknown one i think.
As usual, the ones in blue are my fav lines :)

To listen, click here :

Cried Me a River - Kristinia DeBarge

I still remember

the day that we met

I hung onto every word you said

Asked me to surrender

And thats what I did

And you broke my heart again and again

So now you are sorry

Like you are in love

But where was your "sorry"

when you broke it all off

I told myself never again

There aint no way Im lettin' you win

Because I keep remembering when you played me

I cried me a river

I cried me a sea

I cried me an ocean

I cried me a stream

(I'll cry out...)

Im fresh out of tear drops

You got me empty

Im out of emotion

Got nothing in me

And I woulda done anything in the world for you

I woulda done anything that you told me to

I cried me a river

I cried me a sea

And I aint got nothing left in me

You cant have my number

Dont wanna be friends

I dont care to see you now and then

Its not that Im bitter

Its just that Im done

My heart finally said enoughs enough

So now you are sorry

Like you are in love

Well you wasnt sorry when you messed it all up

I told myself never again

There aint no way Im lettin' you win

Because I keep remembering when you played me

Just in case your not clear

And you think theres a chance

Theres no way your getting near

This or have me again

Until hell has frozen over

you need to understand

You'll ever get with me again

I cried me a river

I cried me a sea

I cried me an ocean

I cried me a stream

(I'll cry out...)

Im fresh out of tear drops

You got me empty

Im out of emotion

Got nothing in me

Exams and Te Amo

Hello! :D
Three papers down, two more to go.
English, Moral studies and Computing Principles are done with =)
Got study skills later at noon and finite math on wednesday :)

Gosh. i can't believe my semester is over-ing already! How fast did three months go by eh.
We shall review the highlights of this sem, as soon as its over la :)

Anyways... I got a new song on the brain :) It's elo and my song ;) OUR love song.
*shhhh dont tell davinia ;)

Te amo by Rihanna.

Te amo, te amo

She says to me, I hear the pain in her voice

Then we danced underneath the candelabra

She takes the lead

That's when I saw it in her eyes - it's over

Then she said te amo then she put her hands around me waist

I told her no,

She cried Te Amo,

I told her I'll never run away but let me go

Her soul hears a cry,

without asking why I said te amo,

wished somebody tell me what she said

Dont it mean I love you

Think it means I love you

Dont it mean I love you

Te amo, te amo, shes scared to breathe

I hold her hand, I've got no choice, uhh

Pulled me out on the beach, danced in the water, I start to leave

She's begging me and asking why its over

Yes we can dance, but you gotta watch your hands.

Watch me all night, I move under the light because I understand that we all need love

And I'm not afraid to feel the love but I don't feel that way, no

Then she said te amo then she put her hands around me waist

I told her no,

She cried Te Amo,

I told her I'll never run away but let me go

Her soul hears a cry, without asking why

I said te amo, wished somebody tell me what she said

Dont it mean I love you

Think it means I love you

Dont it mean I love you

Think it means I love you. I love you Te amo,

Te amo

Don't it mean I love you

Note ; Don't trust love

I try

I try to say goodbye

and I choke

I try to walk away

and I stumble

Though I try to hide it it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

- Macy Gray -

.. Couldn't have said it better myself :) ..

Hush Hush and Tigers Dont Change Their Stripes

You know me and my obsession with overly emo songs lately. I'm not sure what's gotten into me. But anyways, tonight i found another one.. Hush Hush by PCD
I feel like this one relates to me. For some reason.. If you knew my story with him, you'd understand. If you dont, then never mind.
People like manda and ann, and dherej, don't yell at me for feeling the way i do sometimes about him. I can't help that i miss him sometimes.
:)
Maybe this time things will be different? I know you'd say i'm being delusional cos some tigers dont change their stripes so easily. But what if it is?
Anyway..

*hush hush*

I never needed you to be strong I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs I never needed pain, I never needed strain. My love for you was strong enough You should've known. I never needed you for judgement I never needed you to question what i spent I never asked for help,

I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me. And it's a little in the conversations There isn't anything that you can say.

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,

so look at me and listen to me because,

I don't want toStay another minute I don't want you To say a single word Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way I get the final say BecauseI don't want to Do this any longer I don't want you There's nothing left to say Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections On everything from how i act to what i say I never needed words, i never needed hurt, I never needed you to be there everyday I'm sorry for the way i let go Of everything i wanted when you came along But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated

I know next to you is not where i belong And it's a little late for explanations There isn't anything that you can do

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,

so you will listen when i say baby

No more words

No more lies

No more crying

No more pain

No more hurt

No more tryin'

Note ; What do you do when you don't want it to be there, but when it's gone you realise you wanted it there all along? - Maybe you want it back?

English Presentation

Today was another one of those days. Went to college early in my stupid formal-ish outfit and was supposed to meet Jiayin to practise tying the damned saree around her, but as usual everyone around me fails to be on time. So i practised the first time on carmeni, and it looked so bloody perfect on her co she was wearing heels and everything :) Then jiayin finally came so i had to practise it on her since she was to be my model in class. Then I went for moral studies class and then for english class for my damned presentation which went extremely well apart form the fact that my voice was kinda shaky. But yeah, i kept to the time limit perfectly, i didnt even look at the slides ONCE (which is what Mrs Chandra wanted) until the end where i showed a pic of steph in a saree to show how a saree is tied professionally. So yeah, it was pretty good.

Then, Elo Zac Carmeni and Nirai made me sing karaoke in some truck for some Rexona competition. Apparently if i win then i get Rm 15,000 to go visit my idol. LOL. and there's an iphone, digital camera and whatever else. They made me sing ! :S and its going to be on the internet! But you guys vote for me k? i'll post the link here.

Anyways right now i'm tuned in to Hallelujah by Kate Voegele

I'm not sure why but i love this song.
My favourite lines are in blue. For some reason, they touch me. I've become a really confused soul.

Well, I heard there was a sacred chord That David played, and it pleased the Lord But you don't really care for music, do ya Well, it goes like this: the fourth, the fifth The minor fall and the major lift The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well, your faith was strong, but you needed proof You saw her bathing on the roof Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew ya And she tied you to her kitchen chair she broke your throne she cut your hair And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well, baby, I've been here before I've seen this room and I've walked this floor You know, I used to live alone before I knew ya And I've seen your flag on the marble arch And love is not a victory march It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah jah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well, there was a time when you let me know What's really going on below But now you never show that to me, do ya And remember when I moved in you the holy dove was moving to And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well, maybe there is a God above But all I've ever learned from love Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya And it's not a cry that you hear at night It's not somebody who's seen the light It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, oh Hallelujah Lujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Note ; It's a broken Hallelujah

Aint No Sunshine No More

For some reason..

I feel it starting again.

Remember way back when I used to be all emo all the time?

I feel that starting up again for some reason.

I dont like it.

But I can't help it?

:(

Listening to :

(click to listen)

Because - Jessica Mauboy

I waited for so long, you showed me you were the one, I gave you my heart, right from the very start so, Every time you lied, I knew insideGet another chance, I was hurting, I was broken I stayed to long and so that's why, you didn't think that I knew wrong

It's all because, I loved you, (because) I held you, (because) I believed you, You're not what I needed, (because) I'm stronger, (Because) I'm better, (because) without ya, you'd thought I'd be in pieces, Because, because, I loved ya, (because) I loved ya, (because) I loved ya

You gave me, just one thing, for taking from the beginning You left me, a heart ache, how much more could I take, With every alibi, that made me cry, I still gave you more, I should've given up, when I had had enough, But I stayed to long, that's why, you didn't think that I knew wrong,

Writer's Block - Nasri

Another one, two check,Another song for the radio.It hasn't sunk in yet,But it's about to, get personal.Last night my life,She walked out with a suitcase.Took me by surprise,And I'm hurting so bad.Now there's just an empty paper In a room that broke us up.I'm running out of melodiesThey used to be enough.

I can't write it, I just,I can't write a note.I can't write it, I just,I can't write it.If I finish this song,I'll admit that she's gone.And I won't write it, I just,I won't write a note.I won't write it, I just,I won't write it.Until my heart unlocks,I'll have writers block, (oeh)I'll have writers block...

You used to wait up late,I said I'd be right home.I'd even miss our dates,Cause I was grinding in the studio.You always gave so much,I thought I gave it back.I guess I spend my love,To live in between you and the track.Now there's just an empty paperIn a room that broke us up.I'm running out of melodiesThey used to be enough.

And first week that I'm flopping,I'll be on the bottom of the charts.I need my one inspiration,The reason that I'm saying.She is how I got to the top...I just can't write it.

__________________________________________________

Isn't it enough?

The shit that I've been put through all this while.

And now I've got all this more coming at me.

I dont think I deserve this.

Don't I deserve an ounce of happiness?

Note ; Not so much sunshine anymore

First of all,

don't judge me.

You people out there who dont know me and are just getting to know me, DONT judge me.

You dont know who i am or what i've been through.
You don't know what kind of shit has happened to me.
You dont know how much it has hurt.
You dont know how much it still hurts.
You dont know how it feels inside.

So STOP judging me like you know me.


Second of all,

get a life.

To you people out there who have nothing better to do but to bitch about other people, grow up and get a life.

You can say all the things you wanna say about me, but honestly i dont care.
get it? i dont give a damned.
Cos here's the perspective of someone who is smarter than all of you (ME!) ; you're just a bunch of lame ass bums who are so bloody self-absorbed and need to get a hobby.
Your words, mean nothing to me. And if any of my friends are, in fact, my friends, then they really wouldnt give a damned about what you have to say. I'm sorry to say this but people like Ruban and the rest of you are fickle hypocrites. You say one thing and you're so strong on your stupid beliefs but really, you don't know what you're talking about.


Third of all,

i am alone.

To all you friends that have been there for me when i need you, i appreciate it.
To all you friends that try to understand me, it means
To all you friends that try to cheer me up when im upset, thank you for trying.

But this is just the way it is. I'm lonely. After everything that's happened to me in the past few months since josh and roy, things have changed me and my life and perspective. But it's also made me realise that as much as my friends are there for me when it hurts the most, when it comes down to the truth, the truth is, i am alone. I have to bear the pain alone, and I have to wonder about everything by myself.

But i'm not complaining. Cos its all slowly making me a stronger person. Maybe not now, not yet. But in the long-run, im sure it will. I already think I am better now than I used to be.

And for the record, I know that i'll always have God on my side, cos he loves me the most, compared to anyone else. So all the little people that make things hard for me in my life don't matter at all.

Note ; He is my saviour, He will pick me up from this hurt and move me to the top. And He will help me prove that I am a better person.

Parts of one of my favourite Christian Hymns ; So you would come. -[the parts in purple are my fav that touch me most]

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

i officially hate soulja boy and his stupid mofo "Kiss me thru the phone". He can take his stupid shit lyrics and his stupid fuck kissing thru the phone and shove it up his stupid ass.

This is just so bloody stupid. i hate this stupid song just cos it used to be OUR song. Now, its just another song that i can't stand to listen to.

i know i sound so pathetic. but honestly, i've said it once, and i'll say it again, im a music person. music is like .. the heart and soul of me. The greatest love of my life. So, i get easily emotionalised when i listen to a song.

Why do you think i stopped listening to chris brown. he was like josh's and my person. and forever was our song. whatever.