Pray for Peace

At the end of the day, all we can and should do is forgive, pray and bless. Because those who are doing this know not of God. And as Christians, we have been good in not retaliating to such barbaric acts and in keeping our peace and praying. That's simply the right thing to do, to restore the peace.

I believe in God and that he has a plan for us. In time, things will get better.

One Malaysia My Ass.

Because this whole 'One  Malaysia" theory is just a bunch of bullshit. Why? Look at what is being done to our churches, our sacred temples. Just for the sake of using one word. "Allah". Allah. Allah! There I said it. What now? Allah is a universal word which is what they don't understand.

I wonder if these people who are destroying our churches think that they're really going to achieve anything in the eyes of God. And I say God because at the end of the day, whatever religion you are part of you still pray to a God. What matters in every issue is what you have to ask yourselves is how would God feel about you destroying what is not only not rightfully yours, but what also belongs to him? Even in their case, they need to think. Would Nabi have resorted to dealing with such a small issue in such a way? If Nabi was as righteous as they all say, I highly doubt he would approve of what they are doing now.

When will our nation begin to realise that at the end of the day whatever religious background we come from, we are all on the same side. Because there are truly only two kingdoms, the kingdom of light and the kingdom of darkness. We are all rooting for the kingdom of light, the greater good. So we need to unite and stand together, not tear the other religions down. That is not the way to be a peaceful nation.

If our country's leaders dont sit up and start doing something to stop this, our country will be spiralling down in every way. God has bigger plans and let's not forget that everything we do in this lifetime will be in record when judgement day comes.

Note; Praise Jesus for he is my salvation.

Jesus, Lover of my soul

Sometimes, I am afraid that because I am so happy now; that something bad is going to happen to me.
Jesus, I ask you to please just let me be happy this once and not have something horrible happen to me.
I need you to do this for me Lord, to assure myself that life is not always to painful and hard.
Please Jesus, I don't like consequences.
Even if I have done stupid things.
Cover me with your shield Lord,
Hold me to your heart,
Protect me Lord, from the things that might tear me apart

♥

Thank you Jesus.

Thank you God that for once, I listened to my head and not my heart. Thank you mum, for making me go to church again and understanding god's part in my life and what he wants me to be and to do.

remember this post? : Dont let anyone make you do what you dont want to do

Remeber the last part where i said this : Today, I can proudly say that I've become a strong person and not given in to someone like this. I said no to him even though I really liked him, and now I'm going to move on and live my life.

I've realised that God really has been playing a huge role in my life. He's helped me to understand myself and so many other things.And yes, sometimes, things have been rough. and yes, i probably havent handled my emotions very well. But, today i realised, that god was on my side all along and rooting for me to do the right thing because he knew what was going to happen, because god knows me better than anyone else. And God knows that i'm smarter than everyone thinks.

Thank you Jesus.

TGiFridays with the Cartoons i Know :)

Friday; afternoon. - at college
Cartoons involved : Carmeni, Roshaan, Elo, Arun and Jo :p

*cough cough*

=P

 

Kita GENG :)

 

W.T.F

That' what we mean :P

 

Love love love.

 

Like she said, make the right silly faces with the right people ;)

 

 

Roshaan's hand :)

 

Elo and Carmeni drew on it in class. LOL

 

♥

Friday; evening - adrian and kristin's place

Cartoons involved : Li Huay, Adrian, Jo, Kristin, Christine, Lili, Bryan, Nimesh, Daniel, Bryanthenewguy

Adrian :)

 

Lili and Daniel - And Adrian sibuking :)

 

Li Huay :)

 

Lili and Kristin 

 

Bryanthenewguy, Nimesh and Li Huay

 

Syoksendiri! ;P

Like i said,

make faces with the right people

♥

:)

Cell groupies and G.I.Joes

So, on wenesday i think, we had our first ever CG outing, well first ever since i've been a part of it (: We went to pyramid of course, cos thats our zone. There was Lihuay (cg leader), Kristin, Roy, Gabriel, Jonathan, Lili, Ben, Chester, Bryan and me. Ten of us. We met at McD, ate then walked around while Lili shopped for new converse and the rest of us walked around and camwhored :D Then we went bowling ;)) Then we went to watch G.I. Joe which was bloody awesome mind you :)) then they went arcading, and then i had to go back to Rawang ;) Yummy yum. Picchasss ::

This is how it starts :)
Woot woot :P

Escalatos shot.

Thanks ha, Chester a.k.a white tshirt for blocking

(:

Kristin.

Becase peanut butter rules.

Shoe shot

Jonathannnn!

spoilt that shot! ;-/

Ten tickets for G.I. Joe :D

Have your pick of balls :D

Bowl it!

Ben and his baby :P

8 months pregnant apparently

Lili and Kristin

LiHuay

Boys are posers tooo (:

Arcadinggg :D

No, i dont know why jonathan has a silly smirk on his face

The end. :)

The Diary of a Teenage Firl

A few days ago, i finished reading this book. It's called It's My Life and it's a series in The Diary of a Teenage Girl by Melody Carlson.



It's a christian book. and Mum got it for me. And after reading it, i feel really touched. Before i tell you why, go HERE and read the synopsis. Then read my own interpretation of it here after that :)

So it's about a christian girl who', in my opinion, just beginning to understand her faith in God ( just like i am!) and beginning to realise just HOW important God is in her life ( JUST like me!)

And it all comes at the right time cos this is just when she's facing new challenges in her life. She's made commitments to God which she tries to maintain with will power. Her best friend is pregnant and so she's trying to be a good friend and she uses God as her guide to be there for her friend, epecially int he hardest times. And somehow, her faith in God helps her touch the lives of other peple around her. She plans to go with ther church youth group on a mission trip to Mexico. And while in Mexico it's when her faith in God is strengthens as she believes God helps her overcome her own limitations to help the kids in Mexico. And when she goes back home. she realises that her calling, is in fact, to be a missionary, and to help others and to reach out to others and to spread the awesomeness of God's presence.

Reading this book, sort of got me all emotional. Cos i feel like, this is almost me. I'm still finding myself as a Christian. Though i've been a christian all my life, (catholic until i was 14. I'm a lutheran now) , i've never really understood God and what it is to glorify him and to have his presence around me. All i knew was pray and God listens.

But like now, as my close friends would know, I've started going to church again. And slowly i'm learning to brin myself closer to God. I mean, i can pray in tongues now! And I'm not so afraid to pray in public anymore. And i dont mean in public like just for the sake of people hearing me and thinking i'm religious or whatever. No, that's not what i mean, thats not even it. What i mean is like in cell group, to pray aloud when i'm asked. I used to be really shy and conscious about it cos i was afraid my prayers wouldnt be good enough. But i've learnt that God listens to all his children in everyway.

First of all,

don't judge me.

You people out there who dont know me and are just getting to know me, DONT judge me.

You dont know who i am or what i've been through.
You don't know what kind of shit has happened to me.
You dont know how much it has hurt.
You dont know how much it still hurts.
You dont know how it feels inside.

So STOP judging me like you know me.


Second of all,

get a life.

To you people out there who have nothing better to do but to bitch about other people, grow up and get a life.

You can say all the things you wanna say about me, but honestly i dont care.
get it? i dont give a damned.
Cos here's the perspective of someone who is smarter than all of you (ME!) ; you're just a bunch of lame ass bums who are so bloody self-absorbed and need to get a hobby.
Your words, mean nothing to me. And if any of my friends are, in fact, my friends, then they really wouldnt give a damned about what you have to say. I'm sorry to say this but people like Ruban and the rest of you are fickle hypocrites. You say one thing and you're so strong on your stupid beliefs but really, you don't know what you're talking about.


Third of all,

i am alone.

To all you friends that have been there for me when i need you, i appreciate it.
To all you friends that try to understand me, it means
To all you friends that try to cheer me up when im upset, thank you for trying.

But this is just the way it is. I'm lonely. After everything that's happened to me in the past few months since josh and roy, things have changed me and my life and perspective. But it's also made me realise that as much as my friends are there for me when it hurts the most, when it comes down to the truth, the truth is, i am alone. I have to bear the pain alone, and I have to wonder about everything by myself.

But i'm not complaining. Cos its all slowly making me a stronger person. Maybe not now, not yet. But in the long-run, im sure it will. I already think I am better now than I used to be.

And for the record, I know that i'll always have God on my side, cos he loves me the most, compared to anyone else. So all the little people that make things hard for me in my life don't matter at all.

Note ; He is my saviour, He will pick me up from this hurt and move me to the top. And He will help me prove that I am a better person.

Parts of one of my favourite Christian Hymns ; So you would come. -[the parts in purple are my fav that touch me most]

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

You guys know me well enough to know that music is everything to me. It's been part of my soul. A really big part of my life and my heart. Until recently, I wasn't the most religious person. I guess you could say that my faith in God wasn't strong enough.
But recently, i've been building up my relationship with God again. I'm learning to have faith in the miracles he can work. i mean, heLO. HE is the reason that i did so well in my SPM. it had nothing to do with me. I just had God on my side. And the day i got my results, it pretty much made me realise just how much I want and need God in my life, by my side watching over me. And so the past month or so, I started going to church again. Yes. [you guys that have known me forever, close ur mouths. i see your jaws dropping]
So yeah. Don't misunderstand though. I still am who I am. Nothing about me has changed except my faith in God. I'm still not like a goody goody. Never have been, and i doubt its possible I'll ever be. I still curse. I still get angry. I'm no self-righteous person. But I am learning. Not learning to be self righteous. But learning to live by God's word. =) Look at me. sounding like so good and all that jazz. haha.
Anyways. My point of this. was. Music is the love of my life. But i never though of meshing music with God. But now i have. and let me tell you, its the most uplifting thing. When my spirits are down, yeah sure, a song by lady gaga cheers me up but listening to songs like Calvary by the Planetshakers and One Thing by Hillsong, they make me feel... something. i dont know how to explain it. But its like, the lyrics really touch my soul. Anyways. Here's the lyrics to Calvary by planetshakers. I heart them.



I will lift my eyes to You
Where my help comes from
Lord I find my rest in You
Keeper of my soul

You gave it all for me
Maker of Heaven
You paid the price
So I could be with You

Jesus, I remember the cross
Where You hung upon that tree
You won the ultimate victory
Jesus, I remember Calvary

You reign
You reign over the earth

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadows of the Almighty. 3 Surely He will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence

- Psalm 91 -