Am I so hard to love?

Right now I just feel like shit. I am so ready to get over him and move on. But I'm still not ready, in a way. I just want to wake up and be over it. I want to listen to my favourite songs and not want to cry at them. Today I was in the car with Manda and Milan when they were sending me home, and we were listening to Air Supply and some of my other favourite songs, and I broke down and cried. I want to stop feeling like I'm not good enough for him or for anyone else. I want to stop feeling like I'll never be good enough. I want to stop crying at everything that reminds me of him. I want to just move on.

Why is that so hard?