My feelings about things right now, are very discombobulated. I have no interest in spilling my guts or my heart out to anyone. The only person I've told is Aishy. Aishy thanks for listening, it felt good to finally let it out to someone. And no offense, I'm glad you didn't tell me what to do, but you just told me to cheer up and get rest and not think about it. I didn't even tell Davi, whom I normally tell most things to. I'm sorry Davi. I think I just needed someone to listen and not try to help me fix this because right now, I just dont want to fix it. I just want to let it be for awhile. But I hope that when I am ready to fix it, that Davi, you and Manda will be there to help me.
I really shouldn't be having all these feelings and emotions right now because it's just making me so bloody confused about shit that I really shouldn't be confused about. Especially not because my midterms are coming up. It's my own sodding fault for thinking too much. I really fuck myself up when I do that. And right now, all that thinking brought out all these stupid feelings and these feelings are making me feel like a bitch. Which I am not. Only sometimes I am. Only to people I detest. Only when I feel like it.
Fuck feelings man.
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