I hate..

You know what i hate a lot?

I hate it when the guy you really like starts flirting with a friend of yours

And she flirts back knowing how you feel about him.

I hate it when people are rude to you and snap at you when you try to talk about emotional pain you have.

Why can't you just be nice and say "look im sorry, im not int he mood will talk to you later" or some other polite shit like that?

I hate it when I always go back to my hometown and at least i let them know im coming back there so if they wanna meet up we can.

But when they come anywhere NEAR here they don't ever bother calling me just to see if i'd wanna meet up or something like that.

Then why even bother telling me that you've been here?

I know i'm being a bit sensitive and shit.

But here's it :

first of all, it goes against all girl rules in the world to even look twice at a guy you KNOW your friend is into. you're just like sarahfckingewhoredickman who cant keep her hands of her friends' men. First is was Ruth's Anson, then MY Josh. Stupid bitch, i HATE girls like this.

Second of all, i HATE rude people. So next time, and this goes out to everyone, if you're going to be rude to me, dont fcking bother TALKING to me! just go away!

Third of all.. okay..

I live freaking far away now. i know, and i dont expect my friends from back home to come all the way every week or whatever shit.

But its just not fair.

They all still live in the same town. They see each other all the time.

They get to meet up for lunch whenever, they see each other in school

I feel really left out and i dont care if right here i sound like a whiny child because this is just how i feel.

Rathes had come here with Kavs a couple of times and not once have they called me when they're here.

Dheren and Dherej came here and didnt even tell me.

Ann came here to see Mo, and not me, though I've asked her so many times to come over.

I'm not angry

It just hurts.

You guys are my best friends and it kills me that i can't see you as often anymore.

I love you guys tons and i wish i could come back more often and spend more time with you all but the fact is i cant.

And i know you guys feel like i've found new friends in college and shit but as much as i love them too, they dont compare to you guys.

You, the twins i've known since i was 12 and have become really close to.

You, the guys i spent most of my days after SPM with, the ones i tell my secrets to and shit like tht.

You, my best friend ever who's my soulmate that i freaking love.

I miss you guys so much sometimes.

And it hurts me that you guys dont try to make the effort to see me as much as i do to see you guys.

Note ; Sometimes love comes around, and then knocks you down.