Last night, i had sort of an epiphany.
I realised two things. Number one, I always seem to go for the "dangerous" guys. You know, the guys with the piercings and the party boys and the kaki thannis and all that shit. And Number two, I always end up being slapped in the face by them. not literally.

And i think i'm realising these mistakes i've made. and i'm so not going to make them again. I am going to stop with the obsession with these kinda guys. No. actually. I'm going to stop guys altogether. And no, you fool, i am not turning lesbo. What i mean is. I'm going to live my life, for me. I am not going to have a relationship now. I am going to LEARN to be single. I'm not saying i can actually pull it off cos if you've known me for a really long time, then you'll know that i havent been a single girl for more that two months at a time. But now, i'm going to try. I mean heLO. I''m starting college soon. ;) more more MORE cute guys lol

But. Okay. i talked to Jasz and Anil bout this last night.

oh wait. before that. Jasz is my sister's boyfriend's brother and my friend. And Anil is jasz's friend. and Ameet [ *coughcough dhedheboo*]. and Nash. and Sanjiff ;) They are the Ipoh Malis. Lol. and quite fun to talk to mind you. They're all also part of the KKs. In case you people forgot, the KKs are the "KunjiKaiges" founded by Jasz, Ameet and me. LOL.
here's the link to the previous post :: go check it. ::
http://lockdownrebel.blogspot.com/2009/03/kunjiness-of-kunjified-kunjis-btw.html
anyways. we all have names.
Jasz is Kunjimonster. Ameet is Kunjistyle. Sanjiff is Kunjimon. Anil is Kunjidip. Nash is Kunjiboy. and I am Kunjiless. LOL. oh btw. we let dhedheboo join our KK crew and she's Kunjiren. ok. enuff of KKs.

As i was saying. I talked to Jasz and Anil and I told them my new forward motion in life plan. I call it the KALOB - Kiss A Lot Of Boys. Noww, I dont mean this literally because, of course, my lips are sexy and very much so NOT easily accesible. =p Okay now im just crapping. LOL. Ok what Operation KALOB means is that, i'll flirt and date and all that nonsense. But i am NOT going to get into a relationship. I'm sick of rushing into relationships with loser guys. What I'm gonna do is, CHILL. I'm just gonna chill. I'm gonna take my time. and IF i happen to be interested in a guy i'll take my time getting to know him. I'm not gonna rush myself and I'm not gonna let myself be rushed. If a guy cares about me enough, he'll wait.

So. That's my new prerogitive. MY own destiny lies in MY hands right? So i'm not gonna let some mofo guy scribble in my book of life. I write my own story. And if you dont like how i write it, then you can fuck the hell off. MY life. Not yours.

note; [boyfriend] - Brick&Lace :: I treat you like my only dude, But you're not my boyfriend, but you're not my boyfriend, Candlelight dinners round trips for two But you're not my boyfriend, but you're not my boyfriend. You can even roll with another chick I'm down for whatever, I ain't gonna trip that's cool, So don't be thinking I'm in love with you, 'Cause you're not my boyfriend, 'cause you're not my boyfriend. - [This song is for how the new me is gonna be.]