Okay. Here's the dealio. Operation KALOB is off. Not happening. Yes, ok. I know I'm a dumbfool. And I know everyone is going to kill me when I say this. But we're okay. We're still together. I know I know you all probably think i'm the world's biggest fool. But before you get too quick to judge, here's the thing. I care about him. Ok. And he's been going through some shit and i suppose that these past few days i've been a bit bitchy about all this and everything that's been happening. We talked about it all tonight. I asked him everything i had on my mind. And he scolded me for all the shit that happened. We just talked about it all ok? You guys, as much as i love you all, dont need to know what happened between us. You just need to know that i care about him and he cares about me.

And now, i do realise that i should trust him more. That i should believe in him more. I'm still learning to do that aite? i'm still learning to do everything in my life. baby steps. One step at a time. I should and I will.

I thought about it all. And, the thing is, if he really didnt care about me, and if he was just messing around with me, he could have easily ended it with me tonight. He could have just told me to fuck off, and it would be over. But he didn't. He scolded me. He argued with me. He made me feel bad. But at the end of the day, he's still there. He still told me he loves me and he still cares.

Do you guys get my point? As bad as things got at one point, we still care about each other. I think though, he handled this a lot better than any other guy i know. I mean, compare him to Josh. I was with Josh longer than I've been with this one, and the ONE problem we had, and we broke up. You know? He still cares about me, my boyfriend i mean. And i think, i HOPE, that everything that's happened lately will just make us stronger. You know? Anyways. you guys dont need the details. Its not important to y'all. I got the answers and the explanations i needed and im satisfied. I can only hope that you guys understand, and support me.
Ann, don't kill me. Please.

Dheren, DONT yell at me.
And the rest of y'all. BLAH. Just BLAH. cos i have nothing else to say.

Except, that the world seems alright again. I care about my boo. and my boo, though he's still a little angry at me, loves me. It's enough. Im not gonna ask for more. .. yet ;)
Love you alls. Anyways. its almost 4.30am. I need to get to BED! =s church in the morning lol. silly monkeys. I love you people.

- [ Princesz OUT] -