Man.
Suddenly i heard that song.
THAT song.
Our song, back then.
Josh and I.
Forever by Chris Brown.

"It's like I waited my whole life (ohh)
For this one night (one night)
It's gonna be me you and the dance floor
Cuz we only got one night
Double your pleasure
Double your fun
And dance forever ever ever
Forever ever ever
Forever ever ever
Forever (forever)
forever ever ever
Forever ever ever
Forever ever ever
Forever on the dance floor"


Man.
i know i'm supposed to have had such a good day.
and i did.
but
it just feels like today
everyone and everything reminds me of him.

the fried rice today,
reminded me of the wierd fried rice we had one day in Nesan.. and i fed him the stupid fried rice that day.. and Thenindra saw and teased me like hell about it.
the poems and i read today,
were the poems i wrote for him, because of him, when i was heartbroken over him
then chatting with a friend online,
and i was asked about my last relationship. and i thought i'd be okay talking about it, and i was for awhile, though i almost cried.
but then.
i hear this song.
Forever.
It was our song.
cos we were meant to be forever.
shit.
BULLSHIT.
illusions of the heart.
for some reason now.
when i hear
Superhuman
my heart cracks slightly,
i thinks its Chris Brown.
i cant listen to Chris Brown anymore.
Chris Brown was like...
our sacred person.
Man.
This Blows.


I'm supposed to be over him.
Yet,
five minutes of some stupid song by some stupid guy
and
i'm reminded all over again.

SHIIIITT.