Something in me is shifting. Everything is changing now. The way i feel and the opinions i have. It's kinda scary.

I used to be everybody's friend (except for dem haters), no matter guy or girl, i'd be close to whoever. But now i feel so different about everything. My emotions are confusing me.

Recently, i had a really big fight with Mr. K. I've known him forever. We hate each other in primary school but in secondary school we got to know each other and became friends. But it's one of those love-hate friendships. We fight all the time. He's a good guy. But he has the ego the size of three full grown whales! And that seriously is wayyyy too much ego for one person.

Fighting with him last week made me realise that m. And it's so totally wrong and unfair. Why should guys be allowed to do anything they want just because they're filled with testosterone? Guys can get away with being such major a-holes. But when a girl behaves badly, she's called a b****. Guys can get away with going all the way (if you know what i mean) with as many girls but if a girl so much as flirts with a guy she's a slut. Honestly, why is that?

This fight was totally random. I didn't mean to respond to his idioticness but, you know.. it happens. He was being a major jerk and pain in the ass. Bullying us as usual. I'm a very tolerant person. But it just got to a point where I just couldn't stand there and just watch him treat everyone like they're stupid when in fact it was himself being totally stupid. I exploded. I didn't mean to.

In a way though, I'm glad that we fought. It opened my eyes. I no longer think guys are all that. Guys are just like girls, they have two very different sides. The good and the bad. But the difference is that most girls, like me, we know when we're being a b****. This guy didn't even realise or think about what a major jeerk he was being.

Anyway, shockingly, he texted me last night and apologised. I told him I accepted his apology. But honestly, his apology means nothing to me. Coz I know that he's just going to keep on being the jerk that he is. A really sincere person would have apologised face to face. I didn't tell him that though. He needs to learn this kind of stuff on his own. And i really see no point in causing another fight. I gues once again, I've got to be the bigger person. I hate that.

Anyways. I'm doing my best right now to keep those jerkish guys out of my life. I need to surround myself with positivity. THANK GOD for the excellent females in my life! Nads, Ting, Sarah.. my cousins.. etc
Life... *sigh*