It's Me Against the World

I need to come up with a "to-do" list for the two week break :)
THIS should be interesting.

It's me against the world this time.

I've decided, i want to regain control of my life and who I am

Who gives a fcuk about everyone else? Right now, life is about me.

I love everyone around me, they make up good friends.

But when it comes down to it, it's me who's gotta take the best care of MYself.

This life, i've realised, is the once chance we get to do everything we want to do and need to do.And for a change, i'm going to take care of myself.

Ann was right, i've been jumping into short "relationships" ever since josh and i broke up. IT's a transition. Something like eight months to something else that lasts eight weeks.

Instead of jumping into another relationship, i think i just might give myself time. If you remember, this WAS the original plan before i decided to get all depressed and start missing Roy and shit. Whatever yo.

I love myself and there's nothing you can do about it :P If you dont love me, you're just jealous cos you can never be me x)

*i have a right to be perasan once in awhile, so shuttap.

Note ; I don't care if you love me or not, what matters is that I love ♥ ME. ;)

Hello :)
Good morning human beings.
Am sitting in college at sevenfreakingthirty am. Who goes to college .. or ANYWHERE for that matter.. at 7.30am! jeez.
Blex.

Oh yea.
Okay i feel i have some explanation to do.
I know a couple of my previous posts seem.. emo to say the least. and depressing.
obviously i have been cos stuff has been going on and it's bene getting me down a lil.
But then yesterday, or um, two days ago i decided, what the fcuk am i letting myself get all down and depressed for?
Depression is NOT me.
I am Joanna.
I'm meant to be bubbly cheerful and happy like i usually am.
Joanna hates depression.
=)
I think the old me is pretty much back.
I realised i have God on my side and i dont need the people who bring negative energy to my life.
And also..
The people that try to get me down, can only pull me down so much, but they can never break me.
Joanna is a rubber band, stretch me as much as you want to, as much as you can and you might pull me down, but i will bounce back!
I'll get myself out of your grips and bounce back and while i'm bouncing back, i'm gonna snap at your fingers that pulled me, just the way a rubber band would.

Joanna is almost happy again.

Hey,
I'm only still learning.
I'll take my time to actually get there :)

Note ; There's only there's only thing to do, three words for you, I love you. There's only one way to say those three words and that's what i'll do, i love you.

lets go to the car.
i wanna kiss u underneath the stars
maybe we'll go too far
we just dont care, we just dont care.

**

mummy just showed me a video.

its really touching and uplifting. i mean really, if the dad can do that for his son, even with his heart condition, god. just imagine how much he must love his son.
here's the link ::

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJMbk9dtpdY

I realised something today.
I realised that no matter WHAT, no guy in this world can ever make me feel as happy as i felt today. That feeling i got when i found out what my results were, that feeling is a rare feeling. And no one else can make me feel that feeling, only me, myself and I.

So from now on, I dont care if Josh loves me anymore.I will always love him, and he will always have the option of loving me back. But if he doesnt want my love, then it's his loss.
Because I am cute, I am funny, and today I proved I can be smart. Any guy would be lucky to have me because I have a heart full of love to give.

From now on, it's me, myself and I.
I am looking out for ME before anyone else. I am taking care of MYSELF before others. And the person I'm going to learn to love the most is I.

i know i should probably let it go.

so am letting go now.

doesnt mean i like them anymore or respect them anymore.
stupid morons.
i shall be the better person and ignore.

screw them.
im over it.