Crybaby

I swear I am just the world's biggest idiot. Why?
Because only I would cry watching The Princess and The Frog. I cried only at the ending when Ne-yo's Never Knew I Needed came on. And
It suddenly got to me, I dont know why. And I'm still crying! Yes, I know I am an idiot.
It's times like this when little things get me all emotional and I cry that I remember the one thing I am dreading the most : Him going back for his break.
And the thing is he's only going back for a month, I know that, but it still gets to me. I'm so used to having him here all the time. Seeing him so often, talking to him everyday, texting him a lot. I'm so used to having his arms around me, his hands holding mine, his lips on my forehead. What am I going to do when he goes back and I dont have that anymore? What happens if he decides to stay there longer? Or worse, to not come back at all? I know that probably wont happen, because I know he loves me enough to come back, or at least I hope so. But the idea of him not being here, is painful and saddening. I get emotional everytime we talk about it or everytime I think about it when I'm alone. Even when he and I are talking about him going back, I have to try to hard and bite my lip to stop from crying. Especially cos I know he hates it when I cry. He always says that I should save my tears for things that are worthwhile. And I know he's right, that I should save my tears for happy occasions. But when something makes you so sad, the only thing you know how to do is cry.

Dont get it twisted, my life doesnt revolve around him, I have other things going on in my life. But he's one of the few things that really make me happy. So I'm allowed to be sad when something I love so much, something that makes me really and truly genuinely happy for the first time in a long time will be gone for awhile.

Note; He's the best thing I never knew I needed.