Lost.

I'm not sure what's wrong with me. These past few days I have just been so emotional. I feel like there's so much missing and I need it back. 

And for once, it's not because of what anyone has done to me recently. It's because of what was done to me so long ago, and the hurt and remembering is coming back. I hate how this feels. And to go through this alone, it's like I dont have a voice of my own to speak up and talk about it. And it's like I dont have a pair of listening ears to talk to. Like there's no shoulder for me to cry on. 

The people that knew me better are drifting away and I can't impose on other people's bliss with my own sorrows. Everything is intense and too much for my fragile shoulder to carry. The weight is weighing me down. And all I need right now, is for someone to understand. Except no one can, because I can't explain this.