Come take my breath away.

We all know how obsessed I get about blogging a lot just so I can read my blog again, when I've just changed my blog layout :D Heheh. So this is me, procrastinating packing and blogging.

Only today I realised that almost everyone around me is in a relationship. And suddenly I'm like WTF when did that happen? How did everyone suddenly find someone special, a stable relationship, while here i am protecting my life and my heart from being hurt again. How did that happen? I look around and everyone is with someone special, save for two or three others.

And then I find myself wondering, how this this happen for everyone else but me? I may not be a foxy babe, but I know that i've got a good heart and I'm loyal as hell. So what's missing eh?

But you know what, I've given up looking. I think, I'll let him come to me. I'll let him find me. I think, that maybe before this, the guys I dated were just not the right ones. And maybe the fact that right now, i find that im completely uninterested in the other guys, maybe that's just because I'm finally realising where I've been going wrong. Maybe i'm understanding and knowing what kind of guy it is that I'm waiting for and that he's just not around me right now. Or maybe he has yet to reveal himself. Maybe, just maybe.

I feel like, I'm happy. I may not be in a relationship and I may not have those moments that all my friends in relationships have, those moments where I feel completely in love, when that one person takes my breath away. I may not have these kind on moments. But you know what, i've had them once before, and for me, it was epic enough to last me til the next person who can make me feel that way comes along.

But like I said before, I'm ready. I'm ready to feel that way again about someone. I'm ready to give my all to one person. But just because I am ready, that doesnt mean I'm going to BE ready for the next one that comes along. No. i'll only BE ready, for the right one. The one that makes everything worthwhile. The one that takes my breath away.