People-pleaser, I am no more.

It's pretty easy to fake emotions. It is really. So Simple. I should know ;) I have been an expert at it for like at least half of my life. It gets tiring. But what can you do right? When you've become a people pleaser, like yours truly, it's pretty hard to stop. Cos you always want people around you, people you care for to be happy and not angry or upset.

But today, a friend of mine, he told me that when you become a people pleaser, you're not pleasing God. And I realised he's right. When you try to please everyone else around you, firt of all, you're hardly ever pleasing yourself. And second of all, more often than not, trying to please other people, their wants and needs that you're trying to please are probably things god wouldnt approve of.

So as of now, I'mma try not to be so much of a people pleaser. After all, there's huge difference between being a people pleaser, and wanting to make someone happy.. Right? :)

I made my mistake believing that you might have been right for me; believing that you were special enough for me to want to care. But I'll learn from my mistakes. Especially now that I know; that you're not worth me - you're not worth everything that I am and that I could be. I'm not saying that I'm better than you, because no one is above anyone else. But I am a good person, I have a good heart. And you know what? I deserve more than you. 

- Joanna -