does " I love you " really come that easily? or are you faking it?

You know you're starting to lose your faith in love when you have to ask yourself if people really mean it when they say "I love you". 

Honestly, sometimes I wonder, how do people convince themselves that they're IN LOVE with someone, so much to the point that they say "I love you" like fifteen times a day? I'm not trying to insult anyone. Because I used to be like that, I used to tell my boyfriends of the moments that I LOVED them everyday, and after a month we'd be broken up and both moving on to someone new. But when I think about it now, I realise how STUPID it is to convince yourself that you love someone, especially when you've only known them for a short while and been dating for the past month or more; and what? suddenly you love that person? TRUE love doesnt happen in a month; what is wrong with you?

I think somewhere along the line, something happened to me, and I grew up. I realised that "I love you" is special. I think I realised this after my break up with Josh. I did this with Josh too. We started saying the L-word one month into our relationship. But it was something like "Luv ya" not I love you. Even when i said I love you, it was almost accidental. I only realised how much I really loved the boy, about six months into our relationship and that's when I REALLY said the L-word and MEANT it. Even to this day, my love for him is there in my heart. If you were to ask me if I still loved him, I'd say yes. But if you were to ask me if i still cared about him enough to want him back, I'd say no in a hurry. But the point is, I have loved him, I still love him and I always will love him.

My point is, it took me to really get to know Josh and to really experience things with him to realise how much I really loved him. And I know some people can argue that love is subjective and that it's different for everyone. And I agree. I'm not posing an arguement here, I'm looking for an understanding. How SURE could you be after knowing someone for a few months that you're in love? How SURE are you that you know someone well enough to know if they were lying to you about loving you?

We are only human, we are susceptible to lies. We become victims of the sweet nothings that are whispered into our ears. So how could you know if someone really means "I love you" or if they're faking it? I find people very fickle and easy. Fickle because they change their minds about things so simply. And Easy because we are willing to REALLY believe it when someone says they love us.

I have learnt my lesson. I don't believe it so easily when a guy tells me he loves me or likes me or whatever. Why? Because actions speak louder than words. Yes, you could say that I just MIGHT miss out on a chance at real love because of my lack of willingness to believe. But look at it this way, if a guy were to be my REAL love, then we'd be willing to MAKE me believe and he wouldn't give up so easily.

Hey, I'm not so harsh. I'm also secretly quite easy to get on your side. You just have to know how to get to me (:

To you people who might have been offended about the part where I said that true love doesnt happen in a month, well if you really terasa-ed by what I said then maybe you need to think about WHY you terasa-ed. Because I can assure you, you wouldnt be feeling SOMETHING for no reason.

A thought to ponder over
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