You know what?
I was talking about it with a friend yesterday, and even she says it. The chemistry is still there. He still loves me. And I still care about him so much. Like I said before, he was my first love. It's never easy to forget the person you first loved. Right now at this moment, i believe the phrase, you never know what you've got til its gone. Its so much harder than people think, to forget it and move on.
I still love him. I'm admitting it now. And yes, i have a boyfriend, and yes, i care about my boyfriend..

But you don't expect me to just forget about Josh, do you? It's been barely a year. No one really knows how i felt with him. I still remember the way he laughs. His infectious laugh that, no matter how angry I am, still made me laugh. Til today, when he laughs, he makes me laugh. And his stupid lame jokes. Made me burst out laughing. That's what I loved the MOST about him. He made me laugh. All the time. He just knew how to make me laugh. And you know what they say. "If you can make a girl laugh, she's yours forever." Its true.
I know he still cares about me. I felt it when he put his arm around me. When he hugs me, he hugs me just a bit tighter. And I know he cares. I felt safe with him. Protected in a sense. I still do.
We both still care about each other. But we're both too stubborn to admit to it.

But you know what I think, if we're meant to be, it'll happen in its own time. Like they say, God works in mysterious ways right? Whatever it is, i'll let fate take its course. Whatever happens, happens.

I'm happy with life, you know? :)

LOL
i just found this. Random lalaness.
Life goes on. Lets leave it to destiny.