I just wish everyone would leave me alone.
and NOT ask me questions.

Yes, something happened today.

Yes, it upset me.

No, i dont want to talk about it.

Yes, i just want to sleep and be left alone until monday.


You know what is so bloody stupid now? When I was young and stupid and was just flirting around with guys, that's when i got the awesome two or three who were really sincerely into me. but like i said, i was young innocent and stupid.

But NOW, when i'm learning to get serious with ONE guy, it's like, i end up with the screwed up guys who think they're some mofo "playas". I mean really, like WHATHEFUCK man. who the hell do you guys think u are. stupid dumbfucks.

i dont understand why guys who are IN relationships feel the need to entertain every mofo skank that comes onto him. like josh entertained and encouraged sarahthefucktardbitchfacedick to hit on him, and like.. him, now. he thinks he HAS to be some kind of big time playa and layan these damned skanks just cos he's "a famous mc" *coughcough*. my nonexistentballs la weyh. PLEASE. if he really cared, he would just be whatever with them aitez. even amanda told me bout i think it was her ex who when some random slut came on to him and sat on his lap all, he just got up and went "here's you can sit on the seat" or something like that.

Some guys are just bloody stupid. But Anil was right when he said i'm stupid for still being with him. Because its hurting me more than anyone else really, cos he just doesnt give a fuck. and like Adrian said, a guy who treats u like shit but the moment u want to end things, he gets all sweet on you. it's typical male behaviour cos they dont wanna be the ones dumped.

i swear, guys like this need to have their balls castrated and fed to pigs.

My new list :: 20 Things I Would Want My Next Guy To Be..

1. a good Christian guy who not only he himself goes to church but will make ME go too :)
   
2. taller than me
3. intelligent enough
4. funny and able to make me laugh ;) and also a guy that can laugh at himself
   
5. adorable and sweet
6. understanding and loving
7. a gentleman
8. a guy who has goals and who works hard to achieve his goals
9. communicates with me and talks about things with me and doesnt just shut me out
   
10. not just my boyfriend, but also like my best friend.
    
11. a person who doesnt give up easily
12. well-groomed ; meaning not icky and disgusting
    
13. positive and doesnt always look at whats wrong but instead focuses on what's right
14. sincere in everything he does, especially his relationship with me
15. a romantic, buys me flowers, and dances with me at parties and cuddles, and drives out to see me..and etc ;)
16. a guy who sings well (i love musicians)..
17. a guy who can play an instrument like the guitar or piano or even better, the saxophone!
18. a guy whom i can introduce to my family and who introduces me to his and we get along
    
19. a person i can rely on to say the right things when i need to hear it
20. most of all, a guy who is kind to me and just LOVES me.
    

*sigh

higher chances that a nice guy like this does not exist.