I dont know how to explain it all. what happened at mcd. i cried. duh. as usual. coz of the craziness and the involvement of some people. i'm okay now. but ir eally dont know how to express what i feel. and i was chatting with this friend and she said it in a way that was better than i myself could express. and i realised. she it right. anyways read for urself.
um her IM display name has been changed to AMY to protect her identity. just read this conversation we had. it just expressed so much more than i can say.
PrinCesZ says:
hey you!!
Amy says:
hey gurll
Amy says:
wats up
Amy says:
i recongnise that pm
PrinCesZ says:
yeah babey!!
PrinCesZ says:
haha
***
PrinCesZ says:
damn
Amy says:
anyways how r u
PrinCesZ says:
im ok stressing
PrinCesZ says:
i saw mathews at mcd just now
Amy says:
omg seriusly
Amy says:
and....
PrinCesZ says:
i cried
PrinCesZ says:
coz of somehting that kaarviin said
PrinCesZ says:
and there was drama as usual
PrinCesZ says:
and josh told me to wait for him til next week maybe
PrinCesZ says:
and i decided, that right now, i really dont care
PrinCesZ says:
im happy being single and whatever happens will happen
Amy says:
karviin....
Amy says:
wth
PrinCesZ says:
yea
Amy says:
wait till next week
Amy says:
watever for
PrinCesZ says:
hes gonna talk to shannon
PrinCesZ says:
or whatever. i got no parience d la
PrinCesZ says:
patience*
PrinCesZ says:
im sick of being sad all d time
Amy says:
how long has he been saying that
Amy says:
wow
Amy says:
he can even give like an actual date
PrinCesZ says:
yea
Amy says:
no offence jo but who does he think he is
Amy says:
making u wait like that
PrinCesZ says:
exactly
Amy- says:
as if he is so great
Amy says:
and the decision is all his
PrinCesZ says:
exactly.
PrinCesZ says:
dont worry no offence taken
PrinCesZ says:
i feel the same way
Amy says:
lol
Amy says:
i hate that
Amy says:
its like he thinks hes better
Amy says:
i dunno
PrinCesZ says:
i know. i feel the SAME!!
PrinCesZ says:
grrr
Amy says:
haha
Amy says:
no offence again....
Amy says:
but by him doing it...it like he is making u seem so desperate ..like that
PrinCesZ says:
none taken
PrinCesZ says:
i know. i feel like im just supposed to be there when he wants me
Amy says:
haiizzz....boysss
PrinCesZ says:
yea so kecoh
Amy says:
so r u like over josh?
Amy says:
was joan there?
PrinCesZ says:
she wasnt there. and i dont know if im over him. cos when i saw him .. nvm. u go
read my blog. its there. coz i took my laptop to mcd
Amy says:
oh i see
Amy says:
wow
Amy says:
and karviin was there
PrinCesZ says:
yeh
Amy says:
intteresting
*******
PrinCesZ says:
i feel so blah blah blah
Amy says:
whyy??
PrinCesZ says:
i dunno la. lately i feel like im not the old me. i used to be the happy one.. like
all the time smiling all. now im like emo more often than i am happy.so shit right?
Amy says:
yea
Amy says:
that wat love does to a person
PrinCesZ says:
i know. love or lack thereof.
Amy says:
kavs was so right
Amy says:
love changes ppl
PrinCesZ says:
it does. a lot.
PrinCesZ says:
very much
Amy says:
it takes the happy out of u
Amy says:
and nads is going all around school beaming and singing
Amy says:
but i kknow wat u mean
Amy says:
like being all emo and all
Amy says:
like u cant be happy
Amy says:
or laugh
Amy says:
and all that
Amy says:
cos its always there at the back of ur head bugging u
PrinCesZ says:
yea. exactly. my god. ur like reading my mind and saying better than i can. but its
true. sometimes when u fall in love you float so high above that when its all over and the bubble has burst, u fall much faster and harder than you would have if u had been careful.
Amy says:
gurl! wat u said sounded so much better than how i put it
Amy says:
but yea
Amy says:
its true
PrinCesZ says:
sigh. funny how things happen isn't it.
Amy says:
yea!
PrinCesZ says:
... loss for words
Amy says:
if ur lost for word imagine me...
Amy says:
im not exactly the good wit words type
***********
PrinCesZ says:
haiz
Amy says:
y?
PrinCesZ says:
emo emo
Amy says:
awwhhh
Amy says:
ok
Amy says:
i hate emo just for the record
Amy says:
i feel its a waste of life
PrinCesZ says:
i know!!!
PrinCesZ says:
i agree!
PrinCesZ says:
but i cant help it
PrinCesZ says:
i just duno wut to do
PrinCesZ says:
hahaha make him wait. thats so mean
Amy says:
true
Amy says:
easier said than done
Amy says:
noo
Amy says:
if he wants u
Amy says:
tell him
Amy says:
that he made u wait and all
Amy says:
and it really hurt u
Amy says:
and ask him how wud he feel if u did that to him
PrinCesZ says:
sigh
PrinCesZ says:
and what i hate the most
PrinCesZ says:
is that
PrinCesZ says:
he keep telling me that he's fighting with sarah la and he's not talking to her all
because of me..
PrinCesZ says:
like as if i should be grateful or something!
Amy says:
why is he telling u that?
PrinCesZ says:
exactly
PrinCesZ says:
like i care
PrinCesZ says:
like i need to kno
Amy says:
tell him that
Amy says:
that u dont wanna hear it
PrinCesZ says:
haih
PrinCesZ says:
i dunno
PrinCesZ says:
larh
PrinCesZ says:
like i said
PrinCesZ says:
i dont want to care anymore.
PrinCesZ says:
its too painfull
Amy says:
yeaa
Amy says:
but u cant help urself can u
PrinCesZ says:
yea
PrinCesZ says:
thats why it sucks
Amy says:
haiizzz
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