The runaway..

okay it's not so dramatic as it sounds.
i just decide tho hitchhike with the fly to singapore.
okay so maybe im not really running AWAY.
well not from them.
but for all intents purposes, i am running away from them. the guys i mean.
i'm sick of thinking about it.
i'm sick of waking up knowing that there's this decision, this THING hanging over my head. i hate that feeling. i'm so sick of it ALL.

I keep wondering what the hell to do. i mean. my friends and all are so right. he doesn't deserve another chance. but then i keep thinking, i dont want to make a mistake. you know how they say that once you find someone who really and truly loves you, don't let go? that's what i'm wondering now.

i mean, according to shannon and shyam and all,he really really loves me and wants me back. but its like, the way i'm thinking, they're HIS friends, of COURSE they would say that. but then, i also think, what IF they're right.

and then of course there's that other guy who kinda sorta maybe possible likes me. so confusing. his ex cheated on him. but he wants her back i think. and he's meeting her on the 12th, the day his classes start, to talk to her and see if she wants him back. but he's so sure apparently that she doesnt want him back but i dunno. i think she's be pretty stupid then.

but now i dont know what's happeing between him and me. i mean we're friends and all. but i dunno larh. im just dumb.

damn. i hate boy drama.

anyway. that's why i'm so happy to have made my way to singapore. coz none of them can text me or call me here. i'm unreachable. except for through the net. even then i can jsut ignore it easily. i have this annoying complusion to answer or reply any text or phonecall i get. i hate it.

anyways. i ran. i need to get away from it all.