sigh... SUPERHUMAN? makes me wonder...

Chris Brown ft Keri Hilson..

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment u came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
And I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see how love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
Going going, I'm gone away in love

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human

Super human



Been listening to this song like about a zillion times today alone... am addicted to it.. and emotional about it. sigh...

i know i really should forget bout it and move on and all that jazz... but know what?
it's harder than i thought. when it ended i thought "okay maybe
it wont be so hard .. i can just forget bout it and move on".. now i'm thinking "why did i let it happen? what did i do wrong? why is it over?"

i hate this feeling... i never had to feel this before.. now its like permanently stuck there.
everyone is telling me that i deserve better, and somehow, just somehow i know they're right. but i can't help but dwell on the emotions in it.

most crazy of all is that.. he's not giving me the space i need. he texts me like its all normal and okay when he KNOWS that i'm not okay. and its like WTH! don't u see it at all? whats wrong with you?

Beth says that maybe he could be one of those guys who can't stand the thought of a girl moving on form them..... i dunno what to believe anymore..