Everyone is hiding something.

A secret lover? Their real personality? A love child somewhere? An insecurity? What ever it is, everyone has a secret they keep. 

The one thing I've had the most experience with (unfortunately) is people who are excellent at hiding what they really are. People have been perfecting the art of pretending to be what they're not for ages and ages. Most use is to protect themselves from emotional harm. Some, a handful, use it to fuck up other people. 

That's why more often than not you find a girl, or a guy, broken into pieces because he or she trusted someone so much to a point where they were blinded by the truth that quite possibly everyone else saw. 

This also applies to friends, not just lovers. You think you know somebody, inside and out, but then they do things that just shock you. You think you can trust friends to be there always, but a little trigger can just cause them all to turn their backs on you.

The fact of the matter is, life is unpredictable. People are unpredictable. You never know for sure what may or may not happen. And in this case? I'm not sure what piece of advice could help. I'd tell you to be careful and trust no one, but then you'd be living a life that's not really living because you're always gonna be cautious of what's happening. I'd tell you to just go all out with your heart and soul and let whatever happens, happen; but I've been doing too much of that and I've been really burnt and hurt. 

Maybe the best thing is just to strike a balance. Balance is good. Balance is always the best thing because every part of life should have that balance. 

Anyway, I've had a pretty shitty day with so many emotions felt in one day that a person really should NOT have to feel in one whole day. I'm going to bed and waking up with hope of a better tomorrow and though I tell myself this every night, or I tweet it every night, I actually am praying and hoping for a better tomorrow, a day where all the shit that happens or has happened will no longer matter because I am a better stronger person and refuse to let life get me down. I'll get there some day.

With love, J.