Monday, January 19, 2009

Weekend of torture!! ~ confessions of a broken heart as sung by lindsay

OMFG am back! finally!
after a weekend of pure torture!!
i spent the weekend at my uhm REAL father's place
parents are divorced both remarried,and NO silly not remarried to each other but to different people)
anyways.. Want to know WHY it was torture?
well probably because i couldnt go online!! for like FOUR days! omg. it was hell!
haha
no larh im kidding
i sound like a moronic internet addict which i probably am haha
but hey i missed my facebook:D
oh and BTW BIG thanks to dherej for that lil favour:D
anyways.
spent the weekend at father's place..
it was okay larh
except for that lil drama.
and my "angelic sister" ..
HAH!
MY sister? angelic??
per-lease!
its more likely for an indian fellar to have a white ass. haha jkjk
anyways, my sis wasn't so bad larh..
we went to this new place called tropicana city..
we watched four christmases.. lol
reese witherspoon and vince vaughn.
that movie was SO funny!!!!
there was this part! lol
baby jesus!! haha.. nah its k.. you guys go watch it. lol.. my sister and i get the joke larh.. it was really funny:)

anyway, then we.. i mean SHE (my sister) went shopping.. i swear that girl.. she can't get her butt up the stairs in our house to get her own stuff but she can literally SHOP and NOT drop!

there was also family drama which i really am gettin sick of.
my sis and i had to go for this lunch thing coz we kinda said we would and my dad got pissed off coz we had to go off without him, but we were gonna come back anyway
and he yelled at my sister..
and while we were getting ready, he said to us "take your stuff and go"
in like a really rude way.
my sis got really upset at that..
me? i dont know, i didn't really care.. i was kinda used to this kinda stuff since the incident on new year's two years ago.
but my sister then started packing up all our stuff and so did i
i mean, she's my sister and despite everything, if she's hurt i'll stand by her.. (i sound so soppy.. ish!)

anyways, we started packing all then my dad was like why what's wrong where you going. i guess he felt bad when he saw us crying.
and for the record, i only cried coz my sis was crying. anyways, we all argued and had this conversation and i guess SOME of the skeletons were brought out of the closet so yeah.

anyway, then my sister and i decided to just instead of letting our father send us or take his car, we decided to take a cab to our lunch
and then we came back and i suppose he felt bad
but none of us mentioned the drama in the noon

anyways..
he took us out for dinner with his wife and aby (their daughter)..

it was an emotional weekend though i think.
i mean, a lot of people dont realise it but its so NOT easy being like a child of divorce or whatever you wanna call it.
it's harder than people think
i mean, your life is basically divided into two.
instead of having one family, we have two.
its like dividing ourselves into two.
its not as fun as other people think. its not like you get two homes, two bedrooms, two birthday parties.. its not even like that.
i used to see it that way when i was much younger.. you know..
but then i grew up and i realised a few things so yea..
it really is hard and sometimes it makes us more sensitive than people really think
i'm so not being an emotional crybaby or whatever the hell you wanna call it. i'm just saying how a lot of other kids with divorced parents feel.
coz sometimes i feel like kids with perfect families, and by perfect families i mean parents that are together coz nothing in this world is perfect, i feel like these kids dont appreciate what they have. so yeah.

i think one of the reasons Josh and i were like so... difficult together at times is cos he never really understood that i can be a bit sensitive when it comes to this kinda stuff. i envy him though.. with his perfect family that get along well and love each other like crazy.. and are so involved in church.

anyways. drama drama drama. just like that song by lindsay ~ confessions of a broken heart or whatever. sigh.

*do you guys notice i used "anyways" a lot? lol i just realised. haha. oh and "lol"*

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